An escape is just what was needed, and it was magic. Swimming in the ocean most mornings before lunch, drying out under the sun before walking back up to the house for a snack and maybe a sneaky nap, oh it’s been good for the soul. Now it’s 2017 and we’re back in the city, and I can’t quite explain my excitement for this year. I’m feeling overwhelmingly positive about it all, and I guess that’s always a good sign.
It’s widely known that 2016 was pretty awful, but I still hate to simply fit into that bracket. It was a weird one, that’s for sure, and I was not the person I wanted to be. Moody, sensitive, and honestly pretty lazy when it came to pushing myself creatively. This, if nothing else, will change this year and I know that because it already has. My comfort zone is the area that I grow the least, and this means that I like change – I like change a lot. Personally I believe that you have to experience change in order to grow as a person. Last year was a little static, but after a change in scenery and career(!!!) creatively my mind is alive with ideas on a level I haven’t felt in a very long time right now.
The year was also not a terribly good one for our planet which made me sad for a very long time, the realization that humanity has not all reached a similar mindset but is rather still so divided – by race, gender, and more. Sadder still, was when I came home for the holidays and sat through family gatherings with people who shared these points of view. Loud, blustering men, who have never tried to look at life from any other angle than their own. But then, maybe it is not my job anymore to explain my reasons for feeling things, it is their job to feel things more.
In any case, somewhere between then and now I felt a massive positive shift in energy. A few decisions and some realizations were made, which ultimately saw me enrolling myself back into school, jewelry school to be exact. Just the thought of it makes me want to dance around the room right now, and February couldn’t get her sooner. Another milestone, was Jedd taking the huge leap to work for himself and coming out on top, I couldn’t be prouder and happier for him. Freelancing came with a lot of hurdles which we didn’t initially realize, like the fact that basically all of our savings were going to be needed in order to get us through the first three months and many things were going to need to be passed up because of this, but in the end seeing my love happier than he’s ever been was the only confirmation needed that it was the right move. Around this time we also moved apartments, which was much needed, and feels so much more “us”.
Another positive aspect to come out of the last year was a sudden consuming understanding of the importance of self love, and self confidence. Maybe this year we’ll all start loving ourselves and stop apologizing for the things that make us who we are. In any case, 2016 was a great year for personal growth.
I’m not one for resolutions, because ultimately time is a man made concept and a new year is in fact not actually any reason for your views and goals to change. However, this year I do plan on doing a few things. I plan on learning and I plan on loving. And I plan on keeping the people who really know my soul close.
As Kylie said, 2016 was most definitely about realizing things.
And as the wonderful Carrie Fischer said: “Take your broken heart. Make it into art.”